11/13/2004 10:50:00 AM

yea yea yea!!! finally its over!!!!! not totally over lah... but considered coz the last paper is lame paper... hahaha... feel so happy... but sad at the same time.... coz i haf to make a decision soon whether i shld stay on in ntu or not.. i juz cant seem to make up my mind... shld i juz go for wat i wan n dun care abt others?? or shld i stay for his sake n for my parents sake coz i will put a burden on them financially if i change sch??? there seems to be lots of factors to make me stay on... but dat isnt wat i realli wan... yet i dun wanna disappoint them also... haiz... confused.... anyway had a nice day today... phy paper was okie... made quite a few mistakes... but hope can pass lah... den went for movie wif june n colleen at cine... watched princess diaries... nice show... i think its every ger's dream to be a princess... hee... i wanna be 1 too.... hee.... after movie met ben liang marc aaron for dinner... wanted to haf ding tai feng... but so crowded!!! so we end up having dinner at thai express.. hee... had the usual stuff... after dinner walk arnd abit... den sat down at coffee bean n slack.. thanx aaron for the treat.... hee... we force him to treat us... n so here i am now... stoning... crapping to myself... laming to myself.... boring!!!!!!

11/12/2004 12:19:00 AM

haiz.... i'm feeling so damn sianz now.... feeling kinda low oso.... i oso dunno y.... i juz feel dat everything seems to be going against me like dat.... i think everyone feels dat when they r low... like everybody else is treating u very badly... even objects like computers, tv r going against u oso.... arrrggghhhh..... i hate this type of feeling.... it feels like my world is turning upside down!!!!! f*ck.... i needa calm down.... dun ask me wat happen... coz i dunno either... i wanna be alone... juz leave me alone... i juz wan examz to be over soon... den i wun feel dat bad... this sux......

11/10/2004 01:26:00 PM

i've more or less decided i wanna change course... or rather change sch... think i will apply for ACCA.. den in the mean time i will go find some job 1st... earn some spare cash.... i've made this choice becoz i dun wanna retake any subjects.... n i think engineering is not wat i realli wan... there's no pt in forcing myself to study juz becoz of him.... n chem sux!!! stop asking me hows the paper... i flunk it!!! FUCK!!! it kinda tell me dat if a person i stupid.. no matter how hard u work... u wun get good results... n i'm juz like dat.... wats the pt of putting in so much effort, doing so much.. asking pple qns until they get fed up n scolded u until u cry.... yet no results.... dun even understand wat the fuck am i doing this for.... i hate myself... for being so stupid.... i'm going to give up oredi... no pt trying so hard to carry on... when i noe there's no results..............